Well, speaking as a future dad again, it is starting to get interesting around here. There are a lot of signs that tell us it is getting close. I mean, it really could be anytime. Now, there are signs that say that it could very well be a few days or even a week or so. The baby has not really dropped and Robyn still is not feeling any major contractions. So, overall, that works out well for 2 reasons...I am going out of town today, but will be home this evening, and the fact that the car seat is not in yet (that is going to happen on Sunday).
So, all of this brings up an interesting point. We have done so much. It has been an awesome, busy, fun summer. We have spent all this time buying this and buying that. People give us opinions (Robyn listen to them more than I do) and we read, study, ask question, you name it. I guess us a "smart" people try to do the best we can to prepare for that is about to happen. Ask Robyn, I try to plan and think ahead. Now, I don't write lists everywhere like Joe Moon, but I do try and have somewhat of a plan together. Ask Robyn, I do not like to deviate from a plan. It just causes a disturbance in my force.
But, I am here to say, and I am not too proud to admit, we got a little taste of "oh my gosh, what is about to happen and what now." Not to be all that graffic, but Robyn lost her mucous plug yesterday. First of all, everyone seemed to skip over that step of telling me what that was about. I was a bit taken off guard yesterday. But the big thing is that it really set reality back in of what was about to happen. I mean, we think we are ready, but at the same time, what happened yesterday really set us in motion. Next thing I know, I come home and Robyn is washing more stuff, rearranging my entire kitchen, packing the baby's bag, doing some real nesting. It was actually quite interesting to watch. Fun times.
Just goes to show that thinking about a big, exciting event and actually being a part of it are 2 different things. When reality sits in, it really hits home. I must say that it did touch me a little also. I was thinking, this is it. It is really about to happen soon. You just have simple thoughts like "I am about to have a living, breathing baby." Talk about still feeling unprepared, even though we still think we have done the best we can so far. It is almost a feeling of helplessness. But, at the end of the day, I know we are not the only ones to go through this. And, what keeps me from stressing out too much, I know I have a wife that is as excited as me, and the fact that we have never been on the same page as much as we are now. That's how I know that we will do great and there is nothing that we can not figure out together. And, that's how I know that Ella Jane will just bring us closer and love each other as a family that much more.
Until next time....
Friday, September 12, 2008
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Wow. Ella Jane is almost here and it took this long for her dad to post on this blog. Man, I hope this not a sign of things to come. I still have no idea what to expect. Luckily we have several friends going through the same thing and I try and talk to the fathers as much as I can. They are wonderful people who love every second of it and do an awesome job of keeping me excited about the whole experience.
Now, off to the reason I wanted to post on this blog. I guess I just wanted to get down in words what I have experienced so far the past 9 months. It has amazed me how much a focus can change once you find out you are pregnant. I mean, I look back to all the things I used to worry about, like getting frustrated with Robyn, getting caught up in drama, just letting other distractions get into my life. You name it.
But, I will never forget the night that we found out we were pregnant. And just like that, all of that was lifted away. That world stopped right then and there an another one began. I became so numb to everything else. There were only 2 priorities in my life after that night: my wife and my unborn child. Everything else came in second place. I feel like I reached a totally different level in life. I mean, not to sound snobbish, but it was almost, and still is, tough to relate to anyone who had not experienced this in their life. My best friend, Michael Britt, told me that once you are pregnant and you have the child, every other problem and issue not related to your family just seem so trivial and non important. I really did not understand what he was talking about until we got pregnant, but I totally understand it now.
My daughter is not here yet, but she has already taught me that life is wonderful and that life is really a miracle. You will never ask me how I am doing without me giving a positive response, no matter how bad my day may be. I realize how lucky and blessed I am and that people would kill, steal, murder, you name it, to have my life. It is amazing how someone who is not here yet has already taught me so much. That makes her special already.
And my wife, what a trooper. What a wonderful pregnancy she has had so far. She feels great and looks great. I could not have had anything better. We have traveled this summer and there was not a weekend that we were not at the pool. We spent so much time together this summer and I have loved every bit of it. I told her that the day after we got married, I looked at her that next morning and fell in love with her all over again. I thought that could not happen again. I was wrong. Ella Jane made sure that happened again.
Fun times ahead of us. Until next time...
Now, off to the reason I wanted to post on this blog. I guess I just wanted to get down in words what I have experienced so far the past 9 months. It has amazed me how much a focus can change once you find out you are pregnant. I mean, I look back to all the things I used to worry about, like getting frustrated with Robyn, getting caught up in drama, just letting other distractions get into my life. You name it.
But, I will never forget the night that we found out we were pregnant. And just like that, all of that was lifted away. That world stopped right then and there an another one began. I became so numb to everything else. There were only 2 priorities in my life after that night: my wife and my unborn child. Everything else came in second place. I feel like I reached a totally different level in life. I mean, not to sound snobbish, but it was almost, and still is, tough to relate to anyone who had not experienced this in their life. My best friend, Michael Britt, told me that once you are pregnant and you have the child, every other problem and issue not related to your family just seem so trivial and non important. I really did not understand what he was talking about until we got pregnant, but I totally understand it now.
My daughter is not here yet, but she has already taught me that life is wonderful and that life is really a miracle. You will never ask me how I am doing without me giving a positive response, no matter how bad my day may be. I realize how lucky and blessed I am and that people would kill, steal, murder, you name it, to have my life. It is amazing how someone who is not here yet has already taught me so much. That makes her special already.
And my wife, what a trooper. What a wonderful pregnancy she has had so far. She feels great and looks great. I could not have had anything better. We have traveled this summer and there was not a weekend that we were not at the pool. We spent so much time together this summer and I have loved every bit of it. I told her that the day after we got married, I looked at her that next morning and fell in love with her all over again. I thought that could not happen again. I was wrong. Ella Jane made sure that happened again.
Fun times ahead of us. Until next time...
Monday, September 1, 2008
Ella Jane's Quilt
Burton's mom Sylvia is an extremely talented lady! She lovingly made this quilt for Ella Jane.
I love the label she embroidered on the back!
I can't wait for Ella Jane to carry it around!
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